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[...it's a technicality, but he'll allow it. Anyway, once he's determined that yes, there are no visible scorch marks around the place, Sycamore straightens up and closes the distance somewhat, so they're standing in front of each other.]

What are your main symptoms? Other than imitating a fire-type, of course.

[Don't think he's unaware that there's a good chance you feel awful and are just stoically hiding it.]

...Agitation, primarily. I don't feel entirely lucid, and it's frustrating me. Any physical effects are currently minimal. I don't know how likely it is for them to stay that way or if they're going to intensify.

It...does feel like something is off that I can't quite place. Again, it's frustrating but nothing I can't handle.

[It...is only the first full day of this shit, however, so...]

[...mmhmmm that's what he's concerned about...he'll do his best not to show it too much on his face, however, and will put his hands in the pockets of his lab coat (mainly to do something with them).]

That sounds rather standard. You'll likely find that the agitation will intensify into full-blown anger soon, and you may also find yourself being possessive and feeling the need to tell the network about it.

[...so many angry shitposts on the network during this time of the month, mon ami...]

Gosh, listen to me....I sound like a doctor. I don't mean to! I've just made the moonblessings my unofficial new research focus. It keeps me busy.

Honestly, I'd be more surprised if you hadn't found something like that to focus on here. It seems the sort of thing that would interest you.

[So there's...that...]

I don't want you coming over while things become more severe. I don't like the idea of taking out any sort of aggression on you.

It does! It's the closest thing I'll get to Mega Evolution here, with an added bonus that I can participate myself! I've made so many notes about Iris, I could practically earn another PhD.

[He may be exaggerating slightly, but there are...many notes. So much to say, so little time!

Anyway, that last comment will dull his smile a fair bit.]

I understand your hesitation, I just...I don't know. My first moonblessing period was dreadful, I hate the thought of you having to suffer it alone. I know, I know, I can't help, and you're exactly right in that you shouldn't have any easy targets around, I just...

[He just.....he just. Stupid emotions, etc.]

What is it like for Iris, generally? Outside of the transformation aspect. I've heard enough to know it's different, but not in what way.

[...He heard some things from Yashiro, but he's not sure if that's the Experience or if he's a weird outlier.]

[That will actually make him laugh, but it's far more on the...

...on the 'fuck my life' side rather than the genuinely funny side.]

I'll try to keep it scientific.

[Maybe less...Yashiro.]

Iris is like Sanguis in that it intensifies emotions, just in an opposite manner. You feel things far deeper, in terms of your relationships with people, and you're struck by an overwhelming desire to be gentle and kind, nurturing and generous. Thinking of those who are more acquaintances than friends can make you feel warm, so thoughts of actual friends make you want to weep. It's...heavy.

[You can fill in the blanks, in terms of...complicated relationships.]

There's also physical effects that...[arceus above, how does he phrase this] encourage sexual intercourse, but I can spare you the gory details.

...Don't worry, he told me about that last part.

[GOD, HE DOESN'T EVEN NEED TO MENTION WHO "HE" IS, DOES HE.]

All of that sounds a bit..."inconvenient" is one way of looking at it, I suppose. For varying reasons.

How well have you been handling it?

[HE WHO DOES NOT HAVE TO BE NAMED....oh Yashiro. Please keep being you.]

Well, I'm glad I don't have to explain it!

[Because really, how hopelessly awkward. To put it...mildly. As for that question....hmm.]

You're certainly right in that it's inconvenient. I don't mind the sexual things, myself, it's more...the emotions, that I find quite confronting. I...

[...have a sigh.]

...I tend to bury things, and Iris drags them back up. Roughly. But I'm slowly getting better at dealing with it. You'll find the same with Sanguis, I think. It's just that the first time it really hits you, it's...fairly merciless.

...You can call me if it's difficult for you, though I don't know how much my presence will help with such a thing. I can see where it might, but I can also see where it may do the opposite.

[Like. He is kind of the cause of a lot of Emotions, apparently, so...]

[...

HOW MUCH DID YASHIRO TELL YOU-]

Ah, well...it would be best if you didn't visit me during Iris. For multiple reasons.

[Unfortunately, after this stunt of his he's concerned you'll just...show up, so why don't you just...not do that. That would be great.]

[...The most Yashiro told him had to do with self-lubricating assholes, which is not at all the problem he is volunteering to help with. That sounds sort of like a you problem.]

Those reasons being...?

[...this is where, if you had a magatama, you'd be seeing a multitude of psyche-locks.]

I'd prefer to keep them to myself. Sorry, mon ami.

...You don't get to pull this kind of stunt with me and then do that, Augustine.

This kind of stunt...?

[Hmm. This doesn't bode well.]

I'm not sure what you mean.

Why do you get to act on your concern and completely ignore my repeated insistence that I don't want you to, while obviously knowing there's a valid reason that I wouldn't want you to, yet I can't ask anything to ascertain whether I should be concerned about you or not without you dodging the question? This isn't the first time, incidentally.

[...well. That will get a bit of a flinch, but you do have...something of a point...]

I see what you're saying, I just...I don't want to answer your question about Iris because the answer is humiliating.

[Eye contact? Who? Don't know it.]

Just...please, anything but that.

[He just. Sighs a bit, give him a moment.]

Surely you know by now that there's nothing you could tell me that will make me think less of you.

If nothing else, I want that much made clear.

I wouldn't speak so soon.

[Mimicking that sigh, Sycamore runs - or more accurately, drags - his hands through his hair, still refusing to look anywhere near Lysandre's eyes.]

I'm sorry, I just...I can't. I just can't. I promise it's nothing that you need to be concerned about, okay? I'm not in any danger, I just...I stay at home, I deal with it, and once the triple moon is over I forget about it.

[You know, like all this forgetting right here!]

It's just Iris nonsense.

I'm going to see you anyway, at some point. Whether I need to be concerned or not.

You owe me that much, at least.

[..........

no no no no that's fine, that cannot happen-]

I don't remember that being part of our agreement?

I don't remember getting a say in whether an agreement was going to be necessary at all. That was a unilateral decision on your part.

I believe I should at least be offered something similar.

[.....!]

Why are you so interested in this....? I thought we were supposed to be focusing on Sanguis.

Who decided that, mon ami? Because I actually don't recall doing so.

[God, you are so frustrating-]

I'm not letting you near me when I'm in the depths of Iris, Lysandre. I will do something I will regret, and then I will hate myself for it.

You can come into my apartment briefly, check I'm alright - which I will be - and then you have to leave. Those are the only terms I'm interested in entertaining.

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